Hello people of the Internet!
It‘s me, ya girl that posts every once in a while :D
I wanted to come on here and share some thoughts I had during the past weeks we all stayed at home (well, I hope y‘all aren’t the people I keep seeing on IG that act like nothing‘s going on).
Lets start with some background info.
I spent the time from November 2019 to mid-January 2020 in a hospital to get therapy for several reasons, all regarding mental health and EDs. One of my main issues is social anxiety. I cannot be in large crowds for too long or I‘ll get a panic attack. One of the things I have to do now that I‘m out of the hospital is putting myself in situations that cause me stress, so for example: go to the mall for a while when it‘s busier etc. I cannot do that now. Which I really don‘t mind because... well... I don’t like busy places. But now, I feel like the progress I made in therapy is all gone because just the thought of crowds is making me very anxious again.
So yes, on the one hand, self-isolation is very easy for me as I‘m home all day anyway. especially now that I had given notice to my previous job. And even before that I spent the past 12 years in my room because I never happened to have friends where I lived. I’m literally only leaving the house to walk the doggo. But on the other hand, any therapy progress feels like it‘s gone and I wasted 3 months in the hospital for nothing. I fell right back into my old habits. The ED skyrocketed again and I‘m having a hard time changing my lifestyle again. I know I can do it but it‘s hard for me. Like the easiest things for „healthy people“ cause me enormous stress and I feel so bad for complaining about this because I know there‘s people who have it worse but this is my blog and therefore a modern diary... I‘m allowed to talk about this on here, right?!
Anyway, that‘s it for now! Please stay safe and stay at home, you guys!
I also spend a good amount of $$ online shopping during quarantine so I have a ton of makeup products to test and review. Even the Blood Lust palette by Jeffree!
PS: I‘ve been playing ACNH ever since I returned from Chicago, so enjoy this pic of me finding my absolute dreamie on a mystery island: Goldie :D
